The Pain I Feel...

The past few months have been very hectic, stressful, and heartbreaking. However, I have kept my head held high, and never let the obsticles slow me down. Things seemed to be mellowing out for me once school began. I started my son and I on a new routine and it has been working great for us. All was right with the world....

Monday morning I had just laid my son down for his nap, and I was relaxing and enjoying the quiet. My phone rang and my best friend's mother's name came across the screen. After two seconds on the phone with her she told me that her husband had passed about an hour before. She couldn't get in contact with her daughter (my bestie) so she had to call me. She wanted me to tell her what happened. Now my best friend's father had been sick since Thanksgiving with stage 4 cancer and was paralyzed from the chest down, so we knew it was coming. Still, you're never really prepared when it finally happens. When I got off the phone I was in shock. How on Earth was I going to tell my best friend her father was gone? The whole twenty minutes it took me to get to her house were the longest ever! I had no idea what I was going to say or how I was going to say it. When I finally found the words and told her the news, my heart broke right along with hers. That was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. I've had dreams since then of the look on her face and the feeling of my heart twisting in pain. I know if I feel like this, I can only imagine how she is feeling.

I told this story because time is precious. You never know when your last minute is going to be up. Spend every moment with the ones you love and don't let hatred fill your heart. I make sure I tell my parents, my son, and everyone I care for I love them as much as possible. You do not know if you will ever be able to say it to them again.

Potty Dance

I don't know how many of you watch television or have seen the Pull-Ups commercial where they have children doing the "Potty Dance," but it's become a ritual in my house. Every time that commercial comes on, which is all the time, my son starts dancing. Mind you he's only eight months. I think it's the cutest thing ever but I'm starting to hate the song. It is embedded in my head and I'm pretty sure if it was up to my son he would have me sing it all day long.

It's not a very interesting story but it is my life. Now I have to go because my son is taking off down the hallway!

Bucket List

I was watching the movie 'The Holiday' staring Cameron Diaz and Kate Winslet for the thousandth time, and I started thinking about my life. These two women switched homes, and countries, for the holiday. I can't imagine the kind of adventures I would have if I did something like that. Anyway, I got to thinking about things I want to do before I die. So last night after I put my son to sleep I sat up and started my bucket list. I never actually realized all the things I want to do until I put them on paper. Currently I have 24 things that need to be checked off, and more to come. Glad I'm only 20 (soon to be 21). My list ranges from traveling through Italy to being kissed in the rain. Man oh man I'm going to have a good life.

Something New

So this is my first time blogging but I am pretty sure once I start I won't be able to stop. Tonight was my first night in my English class and I liked it. I think that I will enjoy myself. I feel that if I keep an open mind and stay positive then good things will come to pass. So far this week I have two classes down and one to go. It's been smooth sailing so far, let's just hope my Saturday class will keep up the momentum.

Well today has been a long day and I'm tired. That said I think I'm going to call it a night. However, not before I take the time to marvel at my son. He's laying in his crib next to my bed looking so peaceful and innocent. One of my favorite past times is watching him sleep...Hmm maybe that's because I know when he wakes up he will be giving me a run for my money!